SPEECHLESS.,

broken

stop acting like im a kid.
you broke me when i was nine.
opened me into the world where family and ties didnt matter.
and at eleven told me i've changed and that you hated me.
thru twelve thirteen fourteen you've reminded me.
time and time again.
how much you hated me.
and wished i was six all over again.
now fifteen.
you wouldnt believe me.
jumped at every thought that i've might have taken reign and flung.
out of the window.
and onto the pavement.
you thought i've become rebellious.
you thought i've done things on my own.
well im sorry to break your illusions.
i've flew. but i've came back.
only you didnt see me.
so stop trying to act like im a kid, when you dun treat as one, yet punish me for flying... because at the this moment, i still love you.
and i hate myself for that.
family and ties does matter to me.
although ... i've broke since nine.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

1:12 AM

come, let me tell you...

i'll tell you why everything's screwed.
here's my UNDONE hw.
please, i did finish some okay? ... think im not going to sleep. and im going to die. soon. arrr. im not supposed to say that. okay, bottomless pit? hmmmmm... i dun like.

~~chem ws~~
~~phys ws~~
~~geog ws~~
~~maths eg 2 and 3~~
~~bio 6b ws~~
bio 6e ws
~~bio 6c~~
~~cme book~~
~~la file~~
~~hunan bsp stuffies...~~

pawprints... JIAYOU!! sigh.

[edit] I FINISHED!! its 2:53. probably gonna watch one episode of buffy... :):):)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:00 PM

blogs shouldnt all be about freaking out.
but its some place where you can scream ur heart and soul without someone commenting... at least on my blog. chances of people coming here. 0.1%.

im bored out
and i have many things to do. yup.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:37 AM

im not an incompetant person.
i can do things right.
im no bitch.
im a bitch of all things right.
you aint gonna stop me.
i really hate you, all of you.
you stole everything.
and you stole my dignity.
and you... and you.. and you...
what are you guys that im not.
sure, you are better.
but im some things you are not.

im going for VICE PRESIDENT, SECRETARY and MODEL STUDENT
i will put on a FACADE, if it works for ALL OF YOU. and the entire school.
BE AWED BY MY FACADE. AND FALL SO DEEPLY, you wish you were dead.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:45 PM

picturesque

homework first... very impt.

chinese speech essay
maths one qn ._.
physics moody pop
student council signup for exco
practise cello
phys wb
nyaa eport.
chinese newspaper
chinese ws
chinese short story
geog ws
film script

hmm that should be it.
okok. you know about him right.
so uhm, yeah... like today recess i dint go down.
so i was in class.
and i was talking to him
LALALA, you know he sat on the spare table in front of my table and he was looking down at me and talkin to me.
I THINK THAT IS SO COOL.
i mean like finally we are talking grounds. WHOA!
haha, and he smiles when we talk. awww.

yup, i met his GIRL again today.
totally fine.
nth much.
we are pretty much on good terms too. ...
sometimes i feel like im cheating her..
but i feel that i have the right to like him too.
but hey i dint go after him okay?
the boundary is still there.
at least that is what i feel...
LOLLS.

boo. physics test today.
i made a pact with my post-hating teacher.
that if i got lower than 14 he treat me chocolates.
but if i get higher than 14 i treat him milo.
gosh, what is this mannnnn...
but haha, it was funnny. LOL

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

3:34 PM

wooohoo!!

waaa... just finished bio common test today ...
it was horrible!
okay lets not talk about that. haha.
anyway.... lets talk about HIM.

he sat behind me today.
okay it might just be me... or it might just because im sitting next to the girl he likes...
but still, he hadnt needed to sit just behing us, cos i shifted us down one row in the lecture theatre.
mebbe its just the girl he likes.
grrr.
have i mentioned that the girl he likes actually dreamed of another guy?
oooh, and i liked that guy ONCE. okay maybe just a mini crush.
no biggie.
but it seems like our taste are pretty similarr.
auuugh.
it'll be nice if he liked me.
but i have no reason to think that it would happen in a hundred and ten years.
kinda saaaaddd.
awww.

okay done about there.
my teacher was talking about the difference of china and taiwan people knocking the door.
but i carn remember which is which.
*knockknock* 请进
*knockknock* 进来
but the most pro one... singapore.
*knockknock* 走开！
hahahaha!!
hows that?!
dun get me wrong.
im a singaporean...
and this was what sometimes happen:D

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:50 PM

cool stuffs (:

haha had some fun with my languae teacher today(:
he's really funny. lol. nope, no controversy here. just the normal fun:D

hmmm this blog is really becoming like a hw blog. oh well here's the hw till up.

NYAA Eportfolio- do it when i get the template from kwok.
ACE test tmr- go thruuuu.
study BIO.
download CHEM ppt.
~~H2SO4 in car batteries?~~
~~CHINESE ws.~~
~~BIO ws.~~
Phys wb.
~~find out what is sodomy.~~

i bet sodomy is something gross though.
my language teacher calls it putting into the wrong hole.

okay, apparently i've been thru the wiki site and its just so wrong. omg. eww.
its worse than homo. okay homo not any better... but eww. no way. and no offense to anybody out there... who yarr...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

6:38 PM